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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

 
And again, I sit here, wondering about the darkness...
Thinking nothing but death...
How many times have this occurred?
More than anything I can count…

And again, I sit here, tears running down my cheeks…
Thinking nothing but death…
How much longer must I live?
All I ever do is cry in the darkness!

And again, I sit here, tears soaking these same pages.
How much longer must I suffer?
Why can’t I just disappear?
But in the end, no one would bother to care!

I don’t care anymore…
No one ever gives a care to my feelings.
So why don’t you shut the fuck up bitch and quit complaining?
Because you are NOT the one feeling this pain!

That’s it.
Guess I won’t be eating at home anymore.
It’s not like anyone actually gives a damn.
They probably want me to die anyways.

That’s right, I have no heart.
But ever thought of it this way?
You never showed me the meaning of love.
I have no heart so that I sit in the darkness and sob.

For the past 7 years, I have endured nothing but pain.
What happiness?
All a load of crap!

How stupid people are when they suicide?
I admire them…
To be able to take your life, to have the courage to do so…
I admire them so…to just run away!

All is meaningless if I don’t get away.
That’s right, I have lost my heart…
Light, what light?
I never seen no fucking light.
I been in darkness all this time…
And I think its time for me to go…
If only my tears would stop…!!!

Yes, how pathetic I am...
Fortunately, I lost my interest to care.
I have already lost my faith in everything...
So whatever...
I shall wait for my death...
Maybe I should just jump out the next time I cross the road.
I don't care about the pain anymore...
Anything is better than this!
 Posted 12/6/2006 5:22 PM - 18 Views
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